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My life ran away with the Derby Girls

It really did. I was so into the whole mommy thing and focusing on writing and just getting into shape and taking care of ME. Then I discovered Derby. I have been doing it now for just a few months and Im hooked. I don’t ever want to quit. I will be the girl who’s body gives out long before her heart does.  I don’t care how many times you knock me down or I knock myself down. I want this more than anything (outside of family) I have ever wanted. It challenges me. It brings me to the hard core center of who I am, tearing down all labels and fantasy ideas of who I  should be and just makes me prove my worth on skates.  It’s not just skates, its a mind game too. People will try to fuck with me mentally, and I have to learn to set that aside and I have to learn to “fuck” with other people. Wow! What a concept for someone like me, the healer, the peace maker, the lover of all.  The thing is though, I’m learning I can “fuck” with someones mind and still be all those beautiful things that I cherish in myself. I am only making that person stronger. Teaching them to see where they are weak and work on that. I can totally dig this kind of  “Life Coaching.”

I am in love with the brutality of it, with the strategy with the  talent.  I have never been a part of something that contained all those things and included anyone more than myself doing it.  I mean sure I can carry a baby and birth a baby and care for that child like some kind of Goddess, its like smooth butta’ for me but to put myself into something that every single day challenges my being and I leave every single practice feeling like I have grown in my soul…….well FUCK, there just ain’t nothing else like it. I feel so extremely blessed to have a supportive husband and family who encourage this.

I am just happy beyond belief and wanted to share that in a blog today cause I have not blogged since I started Derby. I test in February to see if I’m good enough to actually compete in front of people.  So if you love me send me some good kick ass vibes and if you don’t then fuck off cause I don’t need people in my life that don’t love me.

I love you all,

Hope