A sad and lost boy desperate for an angel to save him

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A young woman sheltered so completely, she appeared angelic

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a date rape

and a remainder of ONE (small innocent female)

Not wanted from conception……. abort abort abort! the banshees screech.

Lies  told in the name of God……  Sinners! Sinners! Sinners !

A future of pain and sorrow set forth before birth

innocence scavenged at 3 years………a family tradition continues

change only brings more predators

then vultures came in masks of friendly deception

the babe was given no knowledge or weapons of defense

add the wolves devouring more than their “share”

she was left for dead

but her heart never stopped beating, her mind never stopped searching, her spirit never stopped soaring

She clawed and she scraped and she prayed and she fought and she cried and she forgave and she loved and she never let go of the soul created, even before conception.

The spirit that was breathed into her by her maker, before all the pain, before all the defiling she was pure and loved.

A love that is bigger and louder and brighter than any darkness this world can dish out.

I always hated math anyway.

Don’t give up just because you think your “broke”.  You always have resources.  Your change could be just under that cushion.  It is within your grasp.

It made me giggle inside as I thought of the many people who really did NOT like me when they first met me (online). After some time of them tolerating my “hippie dippie happy” view on life and my openness to most ideas, no matter how strange they seemed to main stream society, most of these people came to understand me better and most actually like me. A few just tolerate me or ignore me and I’m ok with that. I understand everyone is different and needs different influences in there life.

I am always amazed at this life we live. It’s such a fun journey. I love the growth and change that comes with age and experience. I don’t know exactly why I get to be so (for the most part) peaceful NOW, but I am so thankful for it. Maybe its true that all things must have balance in life. My childhood was the stuff of horror movies, so it only makes sense that now I should be happy and safe.

I have a strong passion to give peace to others. I want so much to bring them this feeling I have. I am not exactly sure how to do it. I’m searching for my way in this one. I know I wont fit into a traditional therapists “chair”. No I need something with a wider spectrum. I need to be free to give the truth from my heart and mind not from just a text book. I think they call these people Life Coaches. Sounds kinda wacky to some, but in my search I have found so many people looking to Life Coaches to help them change their lives. What a wonderful way for me to share my Hopenmindedness.